Love After Love by Derek Walcott
The time will come
when, with elation
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror
and each will smile at the other’s welcome,and say, sit here. Eat.
You will love again the stranger who was your self.
Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved youall your life, whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,
the photographs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
Sit. Feast on your life.
We move through life like a Zombie, doing what we do, being who we are. We live in a trance like state of mind being “Me”. We begin to suffer for it, we no longer know who we are, we hit identity crisis and breakdown, we struggle with ourselves…day after day, year after year, unsure of how to make ourselves right with the world….our own private world. We are dissatisfied, disillusioned, we hate what we have become. Self hate and poor self image are truly unhappy states of mind many of us suffer from.
We live in a dualistic state of mind The person we are acting out and the person who wants to be free. The person who is stuck and the person who wants to be living. The person who who sabotages themselves at every turn and the person who has stirrings from the soul of what they really want to pursue, or be. Which state of mind we are living from is our problem…the “me” who is directing our life can be a very different “me” than who we truly are deep down. When we hit crisis point it’s a wake up call.
We are not born to be robots, we are born to be us. We are born to be thinkers not imprisoned by false beliefs of yesterday. We are born to be uniquely us not just to follow the road more traveled by others. We are born to be free not controlled by the beliefs, expectations and manipulations of others. We can take on any role anyone expects of us or we expect of ourselves! or we can take on the role of being us, who we really are. You have stirrings? Listen to them…they are you saying “THIS is who I am… not this!!!” This can involve change we don’t think we can handle right now, we can remain stuck or frozen with fear of the unknown or we can move ourselves into a life that is consciously decided on as being what we need to do for our own wellbeing. Consciously taking control of what we need to be healthier and happier, rather than what we want to be the easy way out or a robotic stance on life, is waking up.
Wake up and “greet yourself arriving”